I can’t believe it’s 2020 already, can you?! As probably the majority of people are focusing on what they can accomplish this new year, I took some time to reflect my accomplishments and major self-discoveries in 2019. Of course, there are always good and bad events that had to happen. However, I did take away important things from reflecting on 2019 and I know that this newfound knowledge will help me tackle 2020 and make it a better year for me than this previous one.
I learned to stop running and denying things.
Coming from a very success and money-oriented family, it’s easy to be swayed into prioritizing money first. Having relatives that studied finance and engineering, it was easy for me to question whether I should really pursue art. The common notion about art is that it’s risky and may not put food on the table – hence, the term “starving artist”.
I felt that pursuing art would not fulfill my obligation to care for my aging mother and at the same time make her happy. I didn’t want my relatives whispering behind my back, “she’s studying art?? Is she gonna be able to make enough money to live on her own and take care of her mom?”
All these self doubts collected and culminated around my high school years, and as a result, I forced myself away from things I liked doing once I entered college. Instead, I thought to find financial solace in other fields like technology and healthcare.
At the beginning of 2019, after going through a traumatizing experience at one workplace, I decided to finally stop running. I will no longer deny myself the things I truly enjoy doing regardless of what people say behind my back or even to my face. Worrying about what people say doesn’t give you that inner peace and satisfaction with your life. This was a really hard thing for me to do, as I’m very concerned with how people view me. But eh. I’m getting older and ain’t nobody got time for that shit.
To a brighter future!
I just finished my first semester back at my local community college where I’m pursuing Graphic Design. The joys of creating and designing things have returned to me. I’ve made so many pieces of art that I never thought I was capable of making. A major self discovery is that I realize I’m more of an illustration gal rather than a graphic design gal.
After trying to look a little deeper to find out what are my strengths and weaknesses in art, I realized that most, if not all of my portfolio pieces are illustration work. If I was bored, I’d rather draw an animal or a piece of fruit rather than designing a logo or a font.
After realizing this, I decided I’d pursue Illustration as a major if I continue on to get a bachelors degree. I have no idea how the job market is for this field, but since I’m back to school for the second time, I’m going to do what I want.
Illustration vs Graphic Design?
Illustration and graphic design both make the use of images, but illustrators provide more of a visual representation of an idea or words and are often more decorative. Basically, they create images or a scene. For example, the person who designed Simba from the Lion King or Chihiro from Spirited Away is an illustrator. In my art Instagram page, I illustrate a lot of food and animal related images.
A graphic designer’s job is to convey a message or idea to a person or group of people by using designs to capture their attention and carry that message. You don’t have to know how to draw to be a graphic designer. For example, billboards, business cards, and flyers are all done by a Graphic Designer. Graphic designers can work on websites and make it look pretty. They work heavily with layouts and design aesthetic, which cannot be simply passed to an illustrator unless they were trained in Graphic Design as well. Similarly, not all graphic designers can draw, so not all can be illustrators either.
I remember that in the beginning of 2019, I had pretty high ambitions for my Lifestyle blog. Some of my goals back then were to have at least two or three paid collaborations and to make my own coloring book.
I still have that desire, but admittedly, I really didn’t have any direction as to what theme the book would be about, so I didn’t do it.
Close to the end of 2019, Victor had persuaded me to make an online shop, which is something I’ve always thought of, but never pursued. This year, I plan on making this my priority and opening an online shop to sell my illustrations. The first things I’ll have available are art prints, greeting cards, and stickers. Hopefully in the future, I want to add other things like shirts, acrylic charms, enamel pins, etc.
I still plan on blogging (I paid for this, after all!), but it’ll consist mostly of updates on my business and school.
Before I end this post, I’d like to especially thank you for sticking with me and reading my blog posts! It’s encouraged me on so many occasions and you’ve all helped me when I needed to make a tough decision about something. I hope you can stick with me this upcoming year too!